Discouragement and Disgruntlement
May. 3rd, 2010 10:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
krikketgirlI took my Library final tonight. I'm so exasperated by it that I don't know whether to cry or be angry, and I ended up doing a little of both. During the course of this semester, we have used dozens of resources, in addition to our textbook. Let me assure you that I read the assigned readings and some of the non-mandatory readings. I have been an highly-conscientous student. This is the class where the "study guide" was basically part of the syllabus copied over.
I opened the exam to see that the bulk of it was composed of "questions" that were fill-in-the-blank. As in, actual sentences taken from one of the multiple resources we used, in which one word had been left out and we were to fill it in.
I did the best I could, with printouts of almost all of the resources we used. I couldn't open one or two come test time, so that was no help to me. I know my stuff! I honestly do! And yet...based on those portions of the test that can be automatically scored, I'm at about a 72% right now. I'm so agitated by it. This isn't testing what I actually know. It's not testing whether I know the concepts. It's testing whether I can remember a sentence from one of the sources and fill it in exactly the way it was presented.
Whether I make an A or a B in this course really will come down to this test. And I know it shouldn't matter to me that much, but it does.
I opened the exam to see that the bulk of it was composed of "questions" that were fill-in-the-blank. As in, actual sentences taken from one of the multiple resources we used, in which one word had been left out and we were to fill it in.
I did the best I could, with printouts of almost all of the resources we used. I couldn't open one or two come test time, so that was no help to me. I know my stuff! I honestly do! And yet...based on those portions of the test that can be automatically scored, I'm at about a 72% right now. I'm so agitated by it. This isn't testing what I actually know. It's not testing whether I know the concepts. It's testing whether I can remember a sentence from one of the sources and fill it in exactly the way it was presented.
Whether I make an A or a B in this course really will come down to this test. And I know it shouldn't matter to me that much, but it does.
